If you just happened upon my blog, then let me fill you in on a small detail: I like control. Schedules, order, organization, knowing what comes next. All of that. I love it all. This comes in handy sometimes, yes, but I fear it also holds me back more than it helps. I have really been working on just letting go as much as possible and letting things happen, letting the cards fall as they may, if you will. So when the husband had to work almost all day on Saturday, I took a deep breath and decided that rather than fall on the kitchen floor in a heap and scream, "But that's not on the scheduuuule waaahhh.", I would embrace this chance to get to be alone with the kiddies and MAKE it a good day, despite the crappy start. We packed up and headed to the park. Ho hum, right? Except that this time I made an effort to just let go and notice the small things around me. No worrying about dirt being smeared on a bright white shirt, no fretting over staying on schedule and getting home by a certain time. And what a beautiful day it was! I can't even really say what we actually DID because we just kind of meandered around this big, gorgeous park and explored. And I noticed the small things that sometimes pass me by. Ella and I laid on the blanket and she told me what she thought the clouds looked like, Charlie napped in his stroller, we waded in the river and had a picnic lunch in the grass, Charlie touched a dandelion for the first time, and I got to watch the world through the eyes of my children for a few hours. The whole time we were there I kept thinking that there was no way that I could take pictures that would capture how wonderful this day was, but I tried. And I am going to try this whole "letting go" thing more often.
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