Monday, January 19, 2009

Hard.

So, I'm not sure what was the first clue that I am dealing with some sort of postpartum depression: Was it the sense that I am doing NOTHING right? Or the overwhelming urge to pull the covers up over my head and sleep for 8 years? Or possibly the fact that I stared into the medicine cabinet last week and wondered if I actually had the courage to take all 40 percosets? Anyway, I am taking the steps to deal with this and get better, but it is still very very hard for someone who has never dealt with depression to understand how it feels. Until I am clear enough in the head to try and explain it, I think that this blog entry from Dooce.com sums it up perfectly for me.

http://dooce.com/archives/daily/05_11_2004.html



3 comments:

em said...

love ya...I here for you..

The Remers Family said...

i hope you feel better soon!!! hugs!

Jennifer said...

Just clicked on your page for the first time. I've been reading Dooce for a while and yet I've never read this post. Thanks for sharing that, it pretty much describes exactly what I couldn't a few months ago. I'm on meds now too, and some days I feel really good (which basically means I don't feel much of anything) and some days I feel really bad (which means I feel crazy again and can't get anything productive accomplished). I feel for you, and you're right, it is something you cannot understand unless you've been through it. It will get better, I know it.